The Ontological War

I can’t remember exactly when I first started thinking about ontological questions; it was either when I was 18 or 19.

But when I was about 20 I became consumed with thinking about ontological questions and emotions. For a year or two, the whole experience felt to me as if I were driving along a dark country road while it was snowing. By driving forward, the large snowflakes seemed as if they were falling horizontally toward me instead of vertically. Ontologically, at that time, a continuous stream of questions were coming toward me, and I knew I had to understand each in its turn. I also knew that I would be in trouble if I let them overwhelm me by not keeping up in my understanding of them. But doing that was never much of a problem.

Back then, I thought that realself life and the realself world would soon be realized. I didn’t think I was doing anything special, and I thought that others must be thinking about the same thoughts and making the same progress I was making. Because of this, I though humankind was moving forward toward our realselves, and so realself life had to be just a matter of months or a few short years away.

But as more time passed, my thoughts about how long it would be until all human life became realself life changed from months and years to decades. I realized that others were not making the progress I was making, and because of that it would take longer for everyone to become all his or her realself. But this still didn’t seem too bad: For 20-year-olds, 3 or 4 decades would put them in their 50s or 60s, which would mean they could live to see realself life.

Still later, though, the decades for me changed to centuries. Looking around, people were making much slower or even negative progress (many people were actively working at increasing their alienation from their own realselves) from what I thought they should be making, and I knew it would be a long time before humankind would find itself in the realself world.

And now, I’m not certain that significant ontological changes will occur even in centuries: It could—as unbelievable as it seems—even be millennia before human life becomes realself life.

Ever since I was 19 or 20 I’ve thought there must be a few people who were ontological sensitive and insightful, and they would be in the forefront of those who were increasing their degrees of realself and changing the world. But over the last several years I’ve not been very successful in finding any of these people. In fact, I’m starting to wonder if they even exist. If they don’t, then (uh oh!) even the millennia timeframe could be too short.

It is possible, however, that a few people are working toward increasing their degrees of realself, but they have not yet reached the ontological states where they want to talk about what they are doing.

It is also possible that someone who is much better at ontological promotion that I am could change the timeframe considerably.